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Thursday, 02 April 2009

  • Life as I know it..

    Wow!

    Sorry everyone, I have not been on here in a while! I have been really busy and I will catch you all up! It is a bit of a long story, but I hope it is worth your while! (:

    Hmm.. I don't exactly know where to begin! It has been soo long since I have done this, but my last blog was on not being able to sleep and because of all of your good advice, it is getting better! Thank you again!! Since around that time, I have started my Track and Field season in high school, I have put together a volleyball team for club ball, I have gotten stocked by not one, but two people, I have had my FBLA Regional Conference and I am getting ready to leave for SBLC next week, and I have almost survived through my junior year! YAY!

    So to start the news off, Track and Field has been going great, but I am very sore!! I was not smart and I did not continue to work out after my hard-core volleyball season was over, so therefore I have been sitting around all winter being lazy. I had good intentions for working out, but I did not take my goals and put them into action. This is one thing that I have learned the most about myself over the last year or so! I need to get up, and take my great goals and plans and put them into action. So anyways, on with Track.. I have been competing in the hurdles competitions since I was in the sixth grade! I used to hate them with a fiery passion up until my freshmen year. I had a coach that was basically going one-on-one with me teaching me from the beginning how to hurdle correctly. I have improved so much and I know that I could not have done it without her! I actually look forward to the hurdles now and I was as good as our Seniors were when I was a Sophomore, so hopefully, keep your fingers crossed for me, that I will have a fairly positive future in hurdles. Right now, I just feel that I have to master the technique and I will fly over them! (: By the way, they are even harder then they look! Ughh..

    Next, I believe, is my club volleyball team. Last year we sort of got cheated out of having a successful team, yet we still were strong and played really well. Because we live in a very small town, there is always lots of politics when it comes down to sports and a few other things. So last year, of course they decided to not put together a club team and also didn't tell anyone of this choice until it was almost too late. My dad and I decided to throw one together in less than 2 days. It was a tough project, but we did it. Our team was successful, but some of the parents and coaches were, of course, upset. So this year we did it properly and still got looked down upon. So we just have a great team that is out to get some extra playing time and have fun! We are having our tournaments on each weekend mostly in April and on into May! I can't wait!! We are going to dominate. Side note: The other team that was put together has a cheerleader as their defensive specialist. - No offence to cheerleaders at all, but she has hardly ever even played volleyball and is very, very preppy! -

    Now on to the story that some of you may have skipped through to find... Yes, I got stocked twice! I know what you are all thinking.. "How can one girl get stocked twice in such a short period of time?" The answer is that it was completely coincidental. They were two different people and it was not really close to the same time, just a very ironically chain of events. It started a few months over when this kid (we will call him Cowboy) found me on MySpace.com and requested me as a friend. He actually went to the trouble to change where he was from to the same place I am from. Thinking that he was from around here, I added him thinking that he was probably just another hick that I didn't know (we have a lot of those around here). As it turns out, he was another hick, that I didn't know, but not from around here! Later he changed where he was from and told me the truth. How this next part happened.. I have no idea! All of a sudden he texted me one day telling me who he was and began asking me questions. I did not answer them because I am not stupid. Next thing I knew, he was calling me! I always gave him an excuse as to why I couldn't talk and hung up. So this continued on with him texting, then calling, then me blowing him off, them him texting me again, then me not replying. I began to get tired of it really soon. I wouldn't answer him at all and I told one of my friends and he felt it was necessary to talk to him about it so that he would discontinue this behavior. He called Cowboy, told him to back off because I didn't want to talk to him anymore and that if he didn't, the police would get involved. He did stop for a month or so, and then a week ago he decided that it would be a good idea to talk to me again. As per usual, I ignored him! Ironically, that was the exact night that we got freaked out! We being my friend Mallory and I were driving home from watching a late movie at the local theatre when we pulled up to this stoplight. A new-ish van was in front of us and he was speeding up really fast then slowing down so I kept my distance while driving out to her house. Then he pulled over in front of her driveway so that I could not pull in and after a few minutes he pulled forward and turned around at the dead end on the street and pulled over in front of her house and watched it for a long time until they saw her dad look out the window at them so they pulled away! We immediately called the police and had a very long conversation with them about the whole situation and even mentioned Cowboy's texts and calls from the past and just recently. We knew that it was two different cases, but it was still a little creepy. It turns out that Cowboy had a number that had an extra digit! Even after the area code and the 1 that you put in front for long distance calls. Plus, it was not a local number to anywhere around here. Also, when he contacted dispatch, they said that he had been in there multiple times in the past! So I was really lucky that I happen to say something to Mallory. Long story, but a major experience in my life!

    I will make these last couple points brief. (: Sorry.

    FBLA (Future Business Leaders of America) is a club that I am highly involved in! I love it and I think what it represents is really important for anyone interested in business or involved in business. Anyways, we have a Regional Conference and SBLC (State Business Leaders Conference) that is even bigger. This year we were in charge of a lot in each conference. Regionals went really well. Most made it on to State that is coming up next week!! We have to leave at 4:30am. Ew, I know. But it is going to be a blast! Doing events, campaigning, Blazers games, games, dances, etc. It is a blast but at the same time, it is so fun! So on that note, wish me luck!! (:

    Last but certainly not least, perhaps one of the most important, my junior year! We are going into our 4th quarter, which means that there is slightly less than 2 months left of school. Then I can officially say that I survived my junior year of high school! I just have to stay focused and keep my grades up. This is also one reason as to why I have been M.I.A. for quite a while now! After these two months is over and hard finals week is over, it is going to be summer which means that one of my best friends is going to be coming up to visit for a month or two! Yay! I cannot wait to see him. It has been way too long!

    Well, thank you all for reading this as much as you did. That is a little bit of what I have been going through in the past couple of months! You are all awesome! (: Here is a little quote that I like to remind myself of during hard times: "And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years." - Abraham Lincoln

    Have a great day! (:

    Seaside 1                                                   This is my sister and I playing volleyball this summer at a beach tournament! (: So fun!!

    K&K 32                                                 Haha. What can we say.. Ben and Jerry are our home boys! (:

Wednesday, 07 January 2009

  • To Sleep Or Not To Sleep...

    Within the last few months, I have not been able to sleep very well, if at all. I am not sure if it is the whether change or what, but I  have not been sleeping much, nor have I been dreaming very much. If I do dream, the dreams are feint and almost unclear. It is the craziest thing.

    After a long day, I usually feel like I should be tired, but I never am. Knowing this, I will put off any and all obligations that I may have until then, this way I am not burning daylight. I love to stay up, I think that is the best part of the day but I also have lots to fit in while it is light outside. Somehow even if I want to sleep early because of a long day ahead of me, or after a long days work, I can never sleep! It is as though my body is betraying my commands and rebelling against my "needs." My "wants" take over my body and mind-set, then of course I stay up all night, knowing very well that I will not be able to get up pleasantly in the morning where my long day starts all over. In the mornings, I wake up, exhausted from the night before, go to school, I am usually bored all day so by this time you would think that I would be drained, but when I get home I have loads of homework and usually a bible study, youth group or young life. Then I get home even later and finish any undone homework or house work, then try to fit in free time, and I guess that means I stay up late, usually doing something pointless or just nothing at all. Ugh, this is a very frustrating process! Any idea as to why I can't sleep? Even if I try to change all these habits, sleep more, etc., I am totally unable to, why?

    Another awkward incident that I am dealing with that goes along with the whole sleeping thing, I do not dream. It is weird. Obviously I know that I am dreaming at some point because I have researched and done studies on this area of the human brain before, but why can I not remember them? Not even the slightest hint. If by some lucky chance I do remember a dream, it is only part of one and the details are all feint with no recollection of the scenario, people involved, or the point to this dream (not that there always is a valid plot.)Usually, I can remember a little bit and often every detail as if it were my favorite movie, but not recently! I don't remember anything! Is this common or ever happened to you before? I have to say, this is something that I have never experienced before, and when/it I ever get out of this faze, I would not like to experience it ever again. It is pretty awkward.

    After all of this, you would think that I am sleeping in class during the day and making up the lost sleep there, but I don't. Or maybe you are thinking that I should be sick, but I feel fine. Right now it is night time of course and I still have tons to do, but wide awake after 4 hours of sleep last night. Hmm... I guess I am just looking for answers! 

     

    K&K (action) 42

    This is me, not sleeping a few nights ago!

Friday, 19 December 2008

  • How does your sign read?

    At different states in our lives, the signs of love may very: dependence, attraction, contentment, worry, loyalty, grief, affection, pain, bond, etc. At the heart, the source is always the same: human beings have the rare capacity to connect with each other, against all odds. No matter the situation, it always feels that there is always someone looking. Whether it is looking for love in general or even looking your way for a chance at love. There is always the hope that you will find someone great, the "one" that you have been told multiple times is out there just waiting for you to show up. This thing called "love" is often looked for in popular places such as at the mall while shopping for a pair of shoes to match your new outfit, or while sitting at that stoplight on your way to work and see an attractive male winking at you the second you make eye contact, or even just in the grocery store while you are reading the Nutrition Facts to see how much fat is in a pint of ice cream. No matter where you go, it seems that you are wearing a sign that has a blunt statement but no facts or details.

    It is like we as the female species wear signs around our necks that show our current status of being in patterned-flashing bright lights. Within that sign, it says something to the effect of "I AM SINGLE" or "I AM TAKEN" in it. Why is it the sign we wear so simply worded when relationships are so complicated? Shouldn't it be the other way around?! There are so many things that could go wrong in a relationship, that those three blunt little words are not enough information, not even for those of us who actually have to wear it and know what is going on behind the scenes. There is always going to be more then what is really stated. Here are some examples of how the signs should really look:

    Single: "I AM SINGLE AND READY TO MINGLE" or "I AM SINGLE BUT NOT LOOKING".

    Taken: "I AM TAKEN AND HAPPILY INVOLVED" or "I AM MORE OR LESS INVOLVED, BUT I WILLING TO GIVE YOU A CHANCE".

    Undecided: "I UNCERTAIN OF MY STATUS, BUT READY FOR SOMEONE NEW TO SWEEP ME OFF MY FEET" or "I AM UNCERTAIN AT THE MOMENT BUT I AM STIL TRYING TO MAKE THIS WORK".

    Theses signs are easier understood and make even the most complicated relationships less complicated; just from the little bit more information stated underneath the bluntness, it will already clear up a lot of unsolved questions or confusion. I think I can speak for most when I say, as far as affection and relationships go, we all wished life would be much easier. There is a lot to be learned out of the bad relationships and that is all depended on experience. What happens when your self-esteem is crushed and you think you will never meet another guy like the last one? Now is when those signs can come in handy. The "undecided" group is the most confusing. For example, say you got involved in a really terrible situation because you are unsure for yourself whether you are actually in a healthy relationship yet/still, and believe it or not, too many guys are approaching you, even though you are somewhat attached, now I bet a clear sign is sounding pretty good! You want to give more guys a chance, just in case they are that special one that everyone seeks for, yet you still have a guilty conscience for the one you are already working on and attempting to make work. You would not want to complicate your present relationship with a potential future relationship that you don't know anything about.

    I also have this theory that humans are different than other animals, yet have so much in common. Take a dog for example: They can seek out a scent that the females give off while in heat or during breeding periods. How do men always know when to talk to an attractive woman during all the wrong times? There are times when you are looking to put yourself out there, and start a fresh plate with someone new and the guys you would never even look at suddenly come up and are immediately attracted to you. In other circumstances, you could be in a really healthy relationship, or even married, and that is when someone attractive comes up and spills his preplanned speech to you. In that situation, there is really nothing to do except turn them down when you really don't want to for other individual reasons. Which is worse? Obviously, there are other times when the perfect one comes up to you and he may or may not turn out to be your soul mate. It all depends on how you handle the situation. Knowing that, why can't the male species be more like animals and read our signs? Even if there were signs, clear or unclear, why do some males continue to ignore it and be blind sighted by the whole situation?

    I suppose I have given myself more questions then answers. In reality, you will always ask the best question, "why?" This is a great question because there is almost always an answer hidden somewhere in the depths of the world that you are just waiting to find. There are too many different kinds of relationships to address, but each one is also unique. Everyone is a beautiful individual in someone else's eyes. Why not make it your eyes?

Monday, 15 December 2008

  • Life just is..

    This is me. No one else. Life will always go on, no matter what happens. I know this is hard to believe for most, but it is the truth. I am just a simple teenager who is trying to get through high school. One whose waiting for the future to come to them; though I am being rudely interrupted by the impatience of my soul.

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